cant believe my last post was more than half a year ago. guess when i started working ft w HT and my comp was down was the main reason.i still tried to be active while being on my phone. and when i feel the need to pen down some thoughts, i turned to tumblr instead.
or the lil sudden outburst of emotions (positive/negative) were all there.
perhaps i could say 2011 din end well for me. too much deep dark secrets were found, realised how karma bit back.
sometimes, spending forever with a person doesnt make you know him/her. there will always be a side to them that will be kept from you and the more they hide, the more you wanna find out.
at the end of the day, what good does it do to you? -shrugs-
in oct, started working ft, took me alot of effort to adapt to 9-6 working life.
but the lil consolation was D met me for dinner on most nights. when time allows, he will pick me up from work. all was still well.
nov was more or less the same.
dec my ever fav month. holidays! and of course my birthday. as D & mine bday was just a day apart, without any pre-planning, he picked me up from work both nights and we went for dinner. simple dinner that was it. and it was the first time i mambo'd after starting work. and needless to say, cant rmb much what happened for the rest of the night. lol
my lovely girls also had a surprise celebration for me by watching voyage la vie at rws followed by dinner and winebar.
xmas was my long-awaited break. went up to kl (yet again) for some time away. work was somehow driving me nuts. this time round, agnes and mark joined us, and D's biker friends.
din do much, just chilling ard pavilion, watching movies, good food, shoe shopping and lok lok.
and it was thru this trip that i got my heart broken again. and decided that i can and shall not be so naive to trust anyone w my heart ever again.
new year's eve, caught fireworks, despite D reluctance initially. he still does lil things to make me happy. i feel.
but since the kl trip, tried to put in the distance, it did work initially. and then cny came.
a few happy days w the family and friends, before returning to work and the crazy period for natas preparation starts.
with my crazy preparations, and his pt job for m)phosis sale, we hardly met. we even quarreled.
sometimes, he just cant understand me, just focus on his point of view and neglect my feelings. but what could i ask from him? honestly..
natas was great i could say, those 3 days constant facing my eye candy and talking to him. at last, established a friendship i would say. and i shld let it stop there. but mutual attraction i could sense. haha
after natas, resigned, and started preparing for my nz trip and finally had some time to wind down. :)
march went pass in a blur. it was constant fun and more fun. kinda used to the relax and have fun life in NZ that i really dont want to return to reality. still trying to adapt to reality and jobhunting is my top priority now. i seriously and sincerely hope that i get that job that i've been eyeing on. it will solve my thousand and one problems.
patience is a virtue. but in 2 weeks, no response, i also know that i have to move on and probably start studying to get into what i want to do.
after going a big round, teaching is what i love best. despite the tiredness and paperwork, working with kids is what i really want. being with them makes me happy. fills up the void a lil. hence, i shall pursue that.
now that D has started school, 3 nights a week with countless assignments and he has started helping with his bro's shop, he hardly have anytime on hand. but i could see his effort in meeting me, bringing me to movies and such. i shall learn to be content with whatever i can have. perhaps when i start working, i will not have so much time to think abt what i shldnt be thinking.
and there is always a part of me that is constantly thinking abt S. guess i still cant let go somehow.
