my life is filled with so much drama that i cant believe its actually my life. perhaps my retirement lifestyle could be writing a story based on my life.
too many ups and downs for my own good. it was nice having you back in my life, yet at the same time it was horrid. it has been nearly a year since i've felt so restricted and stressed and unhappy all at the same time. but on the other hand, times with you were enjoyable.
bali was like a dream. despite the lil hiccups that we had, it was still amazing. i wonder was it really the company that matters, or was it the place. but i will not hesitate to return for another vacation. (:
when we came back drama started all over again. now whenever i try to post pictures of my trip i cant do it with dry eyes. my heart still aches for you. but i trust that you will never understand and believe and you will never know. i still cant get over the fact that you listened to whatever somebody says and made up your mind. its seriously god damn fucking pissing me off. argh!!!
but well.. i guess 你是好人也是个坏人,分得够狠我才有借口转身.
tues k session with mum was horrid. so many songs. and all i wanted to do was cry. :(
the void will never be filled completely. you will always have the place. but, probably i will not ask a second chance for you to fill it up again.
mr d has been doing a good job since you're gone. and im pretty satisfied with it. all i can say it.. im happy. truly happy or superficially happy? i really dont know. at times when im all alone, you kinda fill up my entire mind. and that aint often, d is taking up too much of my time.
sticky. a lil. but i guess so far im still ok with it. but its always nice to have some time to myself. (:
all the lil things lil details that you take note of, that you know that i'll be happy if you've done it, you've put in your greatest effort. thank you. i really appreciate it. and it warms my heart. a whole deal.
you said no commitment as of now, its still this ambiguous status between us. actually, i dont really care. (i think) cause its the action that determines who i am to you. and right now.. im happy. i guess that is all that matters. (:
