been reblogging too much that i neglected about my dear blogger. haha. its addictive to just click reblog and <3 every nice lil piece of shit. (: i like i like. but well.. reality hits and i just gotta keep my life updated or else one day, this will no longer exist and be covered w dust and followed by cobwebs. haha.
so much have been going thru my mind these days. sometimes i just feel like crying a good whole day. just a few sobs or tears each time aint gonna make me feel better. the emotions are building up and i really need to let it all out to feel better. but i have no time to do so. ):
mr silly been busy preparing for his last sem that he is burying himself w his books and notes. the most i get from him is just a dinner and calls nearly every night. i dont know if absence really makes the heart fonder or im alr getting use to nt havin him by my side. its scary how things have become. i admit im a lil worn out and use to things that i cant sense anymore excitement anymore. but pls give me credit for constantly putting in effort to make things work and make things better.
last night was at vivo w the 2 rascals and we talked. gabby opened up abt his r.s to me. and selig was being nonsensical. haha. we were talking abt things and we both agreed that ppl who constantly mentioning to their other half "i love you" is nothing good. cause it will become so overuse that you wont really feel the real meaning behind it. and yet i said if i have a choice i wont even want to say it. cause honestly im not exactly feelign it. maybe i've come to a point where i feel that its too overuse and it has lost all meaning behind it alr. ): but pls be rest assured, i do love mr silly. yes. i want to spend the rest of my life w him. i want to work hard and save up money for our future, our wedding our honeymoon our house our car and of course our babies. haha.
but as of now, i have to stop thinking abt all these as i gotta work hard to make it all come true. the agency event and coaching w boss today really made me know i gotta make it in my career. its not for myself only. its for ppl ard me that loves me. its not that i dont know abt it its just that i've failed to drill it into me for the past year. and yes. this year this time round im gonna start from zero and have a breakthrough. sometimes i wish mummy can understand me abit more. really. i know she worries abt me. but pls give me a lil encouragement and have faith in me. (: mothers' day is coming and i dont know what to do. argh.
ok. enough ranting. gotta wait for aggy and jen jen to come over and we shall have dinner. im gonna have a good one or else for the next few days im not gonna be able to bite and eat properly. ):
im gonna sort out my life and put it back on track. pls give me your greatest support. hee. the sun shined at 8:16 PM
