another day wout work. my life is getting more and more depressing. i cant do it anymore. i want to have a breakthru. break free from this rut that im falling into.
i know i cant live my life like this anymore. getting away from the comfort zone and the familiar is hard to do. but it is possible. like what obama said "change is never easy. but always possible." (:
at least i know i have ppl ard me when i need someone to lean on to. thank you you all. at least there is some warmth in my small cold lil dark world. i thank god for putting you guys in my life. if you are reading this, yes its you. dont doubt it. (:
anyway was at dempsey w aggy for our lil beauty appt. and today is rather screw up. the worst one so far i would say. but well aft a day or two when it sets in, i will forget all abt it until we bitch abt it again. haha. mac is suicide. really. its everywhere and its so convenient. and it doesnt help at all unless in the nick of time like just now at 2200 at shaw house.
aft talking w her ; we are both pretty much in the same boat. well, we've always been in the same boat most of the time. maybe that's what bff are really abt. going thru the same shit so both can talk abt it and really feel what the other is talkin abt. haas.
aiights. im gonna try to slp. hopefully it wont be another slpless night w me tossing and turning till 5am. or else im really gonna get some pills to make me slp soon. training tmr at scotts. i wanna wake up early enough to get breakfast. (: nighto worldlo. the sun shined at 1:50 AM
