goodbye july. 31days are gone just like that. time is disgustingly zoomin by. argh! i hate it hate it!
somehow my life is always filled w dramas and i am so utterly disappointed w myself. why must drastic consequences arise before i can think straight? standing at the edge of life is no fun at all. i was a total wreck on fri night. i lost my mind. totally. i wanted so badly to say somethings to do somethings. but somehow my body and mind wasnt working tgt. and there it goes.
at heated moment, things that are unpleasant would be heard seen felt. and its always heartbreakin if you are on the receivin end. initial beautiful fri night plan was blown. and i've no one to blame but myself. thank god for friends who came to me in the nick of time. (:
reached home and my eyes were really tired slept soon aft that. sat morning i practically dragged myself up. my phone was disappointingly quiet. ): each waking moment was like a silent blade. finally aft some calls and encourgement i decided to call him. he came over aft an hour and we talked things out. the hurt and disappointment i see in his eyes cut my heart open. i cant do wout him i cant do w all this stupidity that is jeopardising our love.
as for mr trouble. one hand is gonna be taken away before any other claps could be heard. no more mr trouble, no more trouble for me. this time i really mean what i say. i cant risk losing the last piece of my heart ; the pillar of strength in my life i love you boy. the sun shined at 9:22 PM
