lazy sunday at home with hours of tv and the diligent me started to pack my room. got rid of the unsightly bags. put the few ikea buys to use. and i do feel a lil better. (: i think i need more time at home to move ard my stuff. cause i feel a lil accomplished aft that. now i need another day at home to really go thru my stuff and have the heart to throw away the unwanted unused things. i gotta learn to part w things that are of no value no use to me. haas.
in the evening went dwn to town. showed mei the burberry's wristlet that i wanted to get. she said its not worth it. so i walked away feeling disappointed. my burberry.... well well. next season when there`s nicer ones and affordable then probably it will belong to me. (:
went dwn to ps. changed the massager for gramps. had dinner and daiso`d got a few items that i needed. went bodyshop and used my birthday privilege. just stocked up on a few items. mwahaahaa. and then we went home.
you.. you.. what am i supposed to do abt you? i really wanna get out of the pithole before i dig it deeper and i`ll never see sunlight. just when i tot im doing good you are here once again to distrupt my progress. why.. why must you always do this to me? why must you always appear when i finally have the courage to move on. why? perhaps you are really the evil angel in my life. ):
just this morning i woke up to a dream that i felt like slapping myself. i dreamt abt you. how faithful you are to me and how easily i throw tantrums at you and the way you coax me. the phonecall. your voice. everything felt so real that i felt like i was the luckiest girl in the entire world to have you. but then again reality hits. and i realised how idiotic i am. i hate myself. i really do. and its all because of you. argh. i hate myself for wanting you. i hate myself for being so blinded by you that i just cant tell right from wrong pain from happiness. i hate myself for letting you do this to me. i hate myself for being so cowardly before you wout the courage to speak my mind.
the only way to move on and get over you completely is to erase all the memories and how close to mr right you are. the sun shined at 1:04 AM
