fri aft work went over to bishan and met up w mei wei and vanessa. waited at top of the 8 for our teenage craze. the feeling aint the same anymore. but still when the distance draws nearer and nearer i can feel my adrenalin rushing. it feels good to see them again! (: but i wish there`s new songs instead of a new book. had late dinner and plenty of funny talks over at swensens before finally heading home. went over to gramps. had a short rest before waking up at 5plus.
being who she is ; she woke up tgt w me and made breakfast for me. i felt like a lil girl once again. i miss such homely feeling you know. she was so worried abt me walking out to the bus stop cause its still v early and the sky`s still dark. she even offered to pay for my cab fare and ask me to cab to work instead. but whatever the case i still gotta do it. so i walked out and waited for my bus. morning was boring and slow and it got better when the kids turn slowly stream in. gotta feed them and prepare them. when it was 12 we left and reached SA HQ for the yr end grad concert. was the mc for the show and i was glad i aint too nervous the only regret i had was the slip of paper im holding too huge alr. argh! haha. watching the kids perform its such great joy. and im really happy that my kids done well.. im so happy so proud of them. remus and jaasau did their best. really proud of them! (:
it ended earlier than expected walk`d ard bishan before travelling dwn to indoor stadium and had the disney show. i think the older i gets the more i love such kidish stuff. i totally enjoyed myself. esp the beauty and beast story. oh how much i love it. true love like this can nv be found in real life. had late dinner and then it was home before meeting maneka at central for awhile. she crashed over at my place where i simply was knocked out the moment i lay down.
when i finally woke up she left and washed up while i did the same. met again at bout 4ish and had late lunch tgt before heading dwn to town and just roamed ard before settlin dwn at tcc for some coffee. headed home bout 10ish. that`s how my day went abt. (: pretty boring i know. but what can i do. life sucks i know. trying to do something abt it.
my first 09`s resolution is to get over him. since i`ve moved on i must take another step be strong and determine to move on. all the hurt that he has been constantly causing me all the mental torture im letting myself go thru. why shld my love for someone torture me? it shldnt be like this. i`ve done all i could and shit is what i get in return. i really dont think i deserve whatever you are doing to me. i just wish im strong enough to go thru the withdrawal symptoms. one day he will look back and regret losing someone who loved him the most in this entire universe regret throwing my love away like this regret stepping all over my heart like this. i`ll be the best you`ll never have again.
I don't know where to begin Fighting a war I cant win Fighting a memory Something that used to be
No matter how hard I fight All of my strength and my might Keeps defeating me It just keeps defeating me the sun shined at 2:06 AM
